Delayed answers

The message of a small book, Expectation Corner, now out of print, is the subject of today's reading in Streams in the Desert.  (I did find one used hardcover copy available at Amazon for a mere $150, but I opted to pass on it.)  The main character, Adam Slowman, is led into the Lord's treasure houses and sees a room labeled Delayed Blessings Office.  In this room are kept the answers to the prayers of many people that would be answered at the time God deemed appropriate.

I have learned (to a degree) after many years that when my prayers are not answered immediately it doesn't mean that they haven't been heard or that they have been denied.  Have I learned that truth peacefully and acceptingly?  Not always!  

Many times my prayers have gone heavenward as a result of frustration or dissatisfaction and were not God-honoring.  They didn't deserve to be answered immediately. And even now I struggle with prayers of frustration.  

Truthfully, I am ready to be finished with this cancer journey.  I am ready for a body that is as energetic as an old body can be.  I am ready to be able to go out among people whenever I choose and interact once again with friends. But when I look objectively at those prayers, I see Me! Me! Me! at their core.  And it's then that I realize that the answers to those prayers most likely are residing in God's Delayed Blessings Office and will probably stay there until I grow up.

How does He remain so patient with me! 

"The Lord...surrounds me with lovingkindness and tender mercies."-Psalm 103:2,4 (TLB)

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time...though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."-Habakkuk 2:3 (translation unknown)

On the health front:

No call from the oncologist's office regarding Tuesday's blood test results and since the office is closed today I can stay in my chosen state of optimism until I call them tomorrow.