More choices

Funny how life works.  Personally, I wonder how much time I wasted as a healthy person looking ahead to our imagined future of travel, adventure, freedom from the mundane (however rewarding) responsibilities of raising a family and meeting the needs of others.  Did I inadvertently make choices that resulted in my missing some blessings?  I'll never know, but I am re-learning daily that the choices I make need to be choices for today, not for some time in the future that may never become reality.  Am I disappointed that we may not experience some of what we imagined for our future?  Of course! But I will choose to not allow those disappointments to alter the choices I make in my present state.
One of the good things that has happened since my diagnosis is that God has zapped me with a loss of energy that has resulted in my finally being content to sit still.  I am now taking more time to get into God's Word and I've been having some killer "quiet times".  "Trust Me enough to spend ample time with Me, pushing back the demands of the day."  "Don't fall into the trap of being constantly on the go."  "To avoid doing meaningless work, stay in continual communication with Me.  I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you."-Sarah Young (Jesus Calling).  I am now enjoying the fruits of those admonitions, not because I made a choice but because a choice was made for me by a loving God Who convicts me daily that I am never too old to learn new lessons.
Good old Oswald Chambers invites me to "Lift up your (my) eyes on high to see Who has created these things....."-Isaiah 40:26 (NKJV).  "We will see God reaching out to us in every wind that blows, every sunrise and sunset, every cloud in the sky, every flower that blooms, every leaf that fades..."-Oswald Chambers (My Utmost for His Highest).  I'll choose that!
Ben Patterson took me to Psalm 1 this morning.  Psalm 1 speaks of "those who do not follow the advice of the wicked."  I have chosen to be one of "those", if not only to reap the reward that is promised in verse 3..."They (those who make the better choices) are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit in each season." (NLT).  That psalm doesn't say "bearing fruit in only the good seasons", but rather "EACH season in our lives".  No free passes.
"Your choice is either to flourish like a well-watered tree or to allow yourself to be blown about as chaff, to be a person of substance or to be shallow and hollow inside."-Ben Patterson (God's Prayer Book:  The Power and Pleasure of Praying the Psalms).
Cancer is not an excuse to stop flourishing.  I may need a little extra help in order to flourish in this season but that help is all around me if I choose to utilize it!
Sorry to be so wordy today, but there were just too many choices to share :)

On the health front:
I had a couple of unpleasant days at the week's end but all is well today.  Please pray that my body tolerates the adjusted dosage of my oral chemo this time around.
Many, many thanks.