Legacy

Today I am missing my mom.  She has been gone for nearly nineteen years but I still miss her and will continue to miss her until the day we will hopefully meet again.
Having cancer has brought me face to face with realities that I was able to keep on the shelf when I was my healthy self.  Now that I am fully facing the immutable fact that my life will indeed come to an end, I am taking inventory of what I want to leave for my children and grandchildren.
When Jody went off to college she gave me a card that I still have.  On the front it says, "Mom, you taught me everything I know." And on the inside it says, "Could we go over it again?"  I love that card and it continues to bring home the reality that my life needs to be one that continually "goes over it again".  My life example of what is right and what is good must be consistent and ongoing in order to model the legacy I want to leave.
I am incredibly blessed by the knowledge that God has prepared the hearts of each of my children and grandchildren to be sensitive to His voice.  Are there questions?  Are each of them at varying stages in their walks?  Of course!  And that's as it should be.  No matter the godly example I leave for them, I can't give them their faith.  They must own it for themselves.
I consider my cancer journey a gift that has been given to me as a vehicle to show and tell those I love that God is not only present in the good times, He is especially present in the challenging ones.  He can and will do marvelous and mighty things.  I just need to look for Him.
Thank you, Lord, that You have loved me enough to take me on this journey.

"Her children rise up and call her blessed, her husband praises her..."-Proverbs 31:28 (NET).
This is my prayer.

On the health front:
Radiation and oral chemo have sucked my skin dry.  I am tempted to scratch until I irritate it beyond repair.  It's a good thing I'm a dairyman's wife.  The only thing that soothes it is bag balm.