Weary

I am writing this entry at night so it will be ten hours old by the time it is posted. This will be it for today.
I function very differently in the morning than I do at night and right now I am especially aware of that fact.  Since this blog serves as a diary of sorts I want to capture as much as possible from the start, the middle and the end of my journey.  I don't want to forget one minute of it when I am healed.
Tonight I am weary; not just tired, but weary.  My body is letting me down.  My brain feels the very real effects of "chemo fog".  Tears of frustration suddenly appear.  I feel useless and discouraged at times.  But I have been prepared for these foreign experiences by wise friends who have walked their own walks through cancer and are well qualified to advise me, so I'm neither taken by surprise nor am I despondent.  I know "This, too, shall pass".  My friends Pati, Geri, Janice, Joyce, Ruth, Beth, Jerri, Jodi and Robyn understand.  Dale knows this weariness, as do the new friends we have made during treatment so I am not alone.
Tomorrow is a new day and will bring with it renewed energy, or what there is left of it, but I don't ever want to push aside the negatives of this journey in favor of the positives.  I might miss some important lessons to be learned along the way.
So tonight as I prepare for sleep I will accept the invitation of Jesus to "Come to Me, all you are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For My yoke is easy to bear and My load is not hard to carry".Matthew 11:28-30 (NET).
So, good night, friends, and sleep well.