We ran away to Payson on Monday, expecting to have a couple of days of outside work for Chuck and a good opportunity to rest for me. It was ideal in that we are pretty much alone up there, thus eliminating the risk of interaction with potential human-carried germs.
On Monday I was more tired than usual and by Tuesday morning I had a fever that would not break. Our idyllic few days bit the dust and we headed back home in case medical intervention might be required.
Our daughter called my attention to a particularly good daily devotion that provided just the attitude adjustment I needed....a message that my omniscient (all-knowing) God knew that I would be needing at that very moment. I love it when that happens!
Sarah Young called me back to the reality that I need to consider myself blessed when I experience the lack of a basic need....my health at the moment. And how to do that?
My choices are to crumble in defeat and self-pity because I can't take care of the problem myself or to realize that now, as always, self-sufficiency just isn't going to cut it and all I need to do is to hang on to my God Who is already hanging on to me. What a relief it is to know that I don't need to be self- sufficient! God will take care of it for me in His own perfect way. "Awareness of your inadequacy is a rich blessing, training you to rely wholeheartedly on Me."-Sarah Young (Jesus Calling). Now that's blessed!
So, today I will veg, with God's permission, confident that my present circumstances are not unknown to my Great Physician.
"....My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness..."-2 Corinthians 11:9 (NIV).
On the health front:
It's been pretty well covered above.
I had an early blood draw yesterday and will find out today whether I need The Nasty Shot (Neupogen) before resuming chemo. Oh well....whatever works😊
Ironic I read the same devotional Wed morning and felt confident and thankful that my "illness" didn't require much of my sufficiency on Christ as of late. Was feeling pretty self-sufficient. That of course didn't last long and once again, like you, have found myself in a very humbled place depending totally on sufficiency in Christ alone once again. How quickly one can loose their humility in times of good. Thank you for your encouraging words of your struggles and conquering of the defeat our human illnesses can bring. You continue to be in my prayers.
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