Proverbs 16:9 calls me to examine myself to see if I'm jumping ahead, trying to create my own blueprint for what will follow in this new this season, this culmination of our journey through cancer. "In his heart man plans his course, but The Lord determines his steps."-(NIV). And Jeremiah 29:11 puts the exclamation point to that truth: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares The Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."-(NIV).
I need to focus on these two verses today and keep reminding myself that whatever this post-treatment life looks like, it is what has been created just for me and even if it doesn't resemble my pre-cancer one, it will be perfect.
Lord, whatever is to follow, let me be grateful.
On the health front:
Blood draw this morning, then discovering whether or not Neupogen will be necessary in order to receive chemotherapy on Thursday. More waiting. More naps.
Hi Barb. Sounds like we both read Jesus Calling this AM. Those verses were hi lighted there. Good ones one which to meditate. I can completely relate to the physical limitations you may need to endure as a new way to approach life from here. For me what you are describing struck me down 2 years ago. No warning - just did. I still mourn the loss of my non-stop and inexhaustible lifestyle I had. Yet, just when I start to throw myself a pity party I am gently reminded by the Holy Spirit that this lifestyle change is a blessing because it constantly draws me into God's presence. I am ashamed this is what it akes now for me to regularly go,there, but I am so,thankful as well that it is a place which is the best place to be everyday of my life.
ReplyDeleteSo, I encourage to remember the blessings God is always bestowing on us even when we sometimes selfishly don't deserve it. Embrace being still. :) God loves to comfort you there.
Yes, mystery friend, it was straight from Jesus Calling. I can't count the number of times that devotional has met me right where I need to be met. I started a "Bucket List" a while ago and meeting and visiting with Sarah Young to tell her how much I appreciate what she has written is high on the list.
DeleteAnd thank you for your transparency in sharing your challenge. It has impressed me greatly how similar are the things we both hold dear and now I see why. I hope we have a chance to talk in person and share our stories sometime.
Love,
Barb