My Pilot

Bill Crowder, writing for Our Daily Bread, uses the example of a flight simulator to kick my brain into gear this morning.  He talks about the many hours spent in flight simulators by pilots in training.  The pilots are put into situations in which life and death decisions must be made.  They work their way through those situations with varying results and even when their simulator planes crash to the ground, the pilots walk away unscathed.  Unfortunately, as Crowder points out, life isn't like that.  We have no "life simulators" in which we can take practice runs, experience the results of our life choices and then employ the choices that have yielded the most satisfactory results, walking away unscathed.

I think back to the beginning of our journey through cancer and wonder if it would have been beneficial to have had a "cancer simulator" where I could have experimented with different choices, then walked away unscathed, having experienced, albeit artificially, the effects of my poor choices along the way and knowing to avoid them later on.

I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that it would not have been a good thing. As long as I was in the "cancer simulator" I would have had the controls in my hand.  Every move would have depended on my own decisions.  I would have been the pilot through the good choices and the poor choices and I can easily imagine the devastating results of the experience.

I am so grateful when I think back and remember that at no time did I need to hand the controls over to God.  He had the controls firmly in His hand long before our journey began.  And as a result I have not crashed and burned.

Have I walked away unscathed?  I truly hope not!  I never want to forget the pain and trials of this journey. It has been in the times of my greatest discomfort that I have experienced my greatest need for the Pilot and have experienced the ongoing, faithful meeting of those needs by His hand.

The bumper sticker of years past had it completely wrong when it stated, "God is my Co-pilot". Thank you, Lord, that you are my Pilot, no "Co" about it!

"I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace......."-John 16:33a (NET).

On the health front:

Neupogen today...ugh!